两极分化的社会
C. Cindy Fan是加州大学洛杉矶分校社会科学副院长和地理学教授。她著有《行动中的中国》(China on the Move)一书，并发表了大量文章。
3月23日，一所小学门口，早晨校门开启前的10分钟，42岁的郑民生用一把12英寸长的匕首刺死了八名小学生并刺伤了另外五名受害者。据一名目击者说，在被制服前，郑民生曾高喊：他们不让我活，把我逼疯了，我也不让大家活。
在接下来的八周里，中国又出现了另外四起类似袭击案。其中一部分可能是模仿作案，而观察员则强调精神疾病、压力和对一个急剧两极分化社会的怨恨才是这种暴力犯罪的起因。更令人发指的是案中的受害者都是无辜的、没有防御能力的孩子。
案件细节给了我们一些线索。郑民生2009年六月离开在医院的工作，在那之前做了18年外科医生。在美国，一个普通医生能够买得起一所房子并过上舒适的生活。而郑民生则是跟自己80岁的母亲和哥哥一家三口住在一所公寓里，睡在客厅。他的月收入不足2000块，这样的收入水平根本负担不起中国精英幼儿园的学费，也不够买一所公寓。
中国的内科医生群体普遍薪酬不高。自上世纪50年代起几十年的计划经济时期，医疗是由政府运营，而作为计划经济体制的遗留，现如今的大多数医疗实践都是非私人的。
尽管郑民生能养活自己，但他微薄的收入让他成为了婚姻市场上的无力竞争者。他的邻居说，郑民生曾谈过几个女朋友，但没人愿意跟他结婚，因为他没钱而且买不起自己的房子。在中国，拥有或至少租得起一处自己的住所的能力仍然是结婚的前提。
我们可能永远无法了解到底是什么使得郑民生走投无路（他已被判处死刑，并已于四月底执行）。另外四起袭击案的情况可能大不相同，但有一点是一样的，都是中年男性独自作案。
这些事件提供了什么我们还不了解的关于中国社会的信息吗？我深表怀疑。我们知道在中国，贫富差距很大，城市人口密集，生活在社会常模之外（比如单身或离异等）要面对很多压力，男人需要成功的压力很大，而精神疾病（还有很多生理疾病）被当成是一种羞耻。
但是我们还知道普通的中国人的生活要好得多，他们有更多的人身自由、受到更好的教育、更加自信、与外界的接触更广泛，并且比他们的父母和祖父母更长寿。在这种情况下，帮助平均水平以下群体、社会边缘人士和弱势群体必须成为政府以及整个社会的首要任务。
无辜者之死
Guobin Yang是伯纳德学院亚洲和中东文化研究系副教授，著有《中国互联网的力量：公民行动主义在线》。
此类袭击案件的高频率（不足两个月的时间内连发五起）似乎为这些是模仿作案的说法提供了佐证。也有人怀疑凶手有精神疾病。但也有人提到了在一个政府严格限制的社会中缺乏情绪疏导。
个人的作案动机可能不尽相同，但这其中有普遍的潜在诱因。这些袭击事件仅仅是一个日益愠怒和争议倍出的社会最猛烈、最残忍的征兆。还有一些其它征兆：
-公众抗议的数量持续增长（1993年的8700次，2005年87000次），其中大部分指向政府当局。
-针对政府当局的暴力袭击数量持续增长，比如焚烧警车和政府大楼。
-绝望的个人以自焚来抗议强行拆迁和缺少寻求正义的法律途径。
-政府官员猖獗的腐败在网络论坛和博客上不断被披露。
这个列表还可以继续。他们共同的主线正是官方、法律和管理所面临的危机。政府当局背离了法律和正义的管理者的角色，却成为冤屈和绝望的来源和目标。当公民没有合法途径去寻求正义时，暴力就成为了他们的选择。
这些暴力事件还有另一个深层的令人堪忧的元素。袭击者把目标指向了他们自己的共同体中最无辜也最受珍爱的成员。共同体常被看做是危机时期的缓冲器（如战争时期）。通过背叛自己的共同体，这些袭击者揭露了该共同体中重大危机，而这个共同体长期以来一直是中国社会稳定的根源。
2010年5月18日星期二
China's School Killings and Social Despair-Part 1
http://roomfordebate.blogs.nytimes.com/2010/05/13/chinas-school-killings-and-social-despair/?ref=asia
中国的校园伤害案件和社会绝望
过去的两个月，中国政府正努力应对一系列边远地区伤害小学生的恶性伤害事件。他们已经以担心模仿案件的出现为由对新闻界施压，并呼吁加强学校安保工作。然而，5月12日，又有一名男性气势汹汹地冲入陕西省的一所农村学校，夺走了七名孩子和两名成人的生命。这是自三月份以来的第五起校园伤害案件，作案人均系持匕首、坎肉刀或其它作案工具的中年男性。在这几起伤害案中，共17人死亡、近100人受伤。
几位评论员说这些袭击案是一个急速发展社会中极端压力的征兆，是政府尚未意识到的一股暗涌。
袭击案的政治意义
Zhou Xueguang 是一位社会学教授、斯坦福大学弗里曼斯波利研究所国际问题研究所高级研究员，目前任教于斯坦福大学北京计划项目。
校园袭击案的种种细节还有待理清——这些校园袭击案是孤立事件还是模仿案件；是因精神疾病引起的还是基于恶意动机的。但是有一个问题是非常明确的：这些事件是当今中国社会中广泛、快速增长的社会焦虑、沮丧和紧张的反映。
从一个层面上来说，这样的紧张状态在任何一个急速变化的社会中都几乎是不可避免的。当今的中国正在经历一个广泛和快速的变革，而这种广度和深度在中国的漫长历史中都是甚少出现的。
大范围的城市化，很多情况下其实是强迫推进的城市化，通过农村和城市地区的迁移、土地占有和居民重置来实现。令人惊恐的社会不公已经是个人在日常生活中所经历的赤裸裸的现实。尤其是大城市飞涨的房价，近年来涨了三到四倍，给富人和穷人间划上了一道深不可测的分界线。
在北京或是其它大城市的街道上闲逛，你能看到那些大门有警卫守卫、需要刷卡进入而且有精心打理的小径和绿化的住宅区。住宅区的高墙将墙内的富人和墙外的噪音和人群分隔开来。
然而，对于一个大学毕业生来说，即便是在大城市有一份体面的工作，在暴涨的房价面前，也不敢奢望在其有生之年能拥有属于一处自己的房子。这与早前的改革时期大不相同，那时的改革政策，尤其是将土地包产到户的政策，引起了生产力的大幅提高并惠及了人口总数中的大多数。
传统的家庭自给自足及邻里间互相帮扶的传统的社会格局已无法应对社会错位、社会封闭和特定群体边缘化的增长。
现在，绝望和怨恨的根源很深。社会学家用“社会混乱”(anomie)来描述社会规范和价值的坍塌。而校园袭击事件很可能就是这些日益紧绷的紧张状态的爆发。
从另一个层面上说，真正令人不安的是中国政府处理这种冲突的方式。它一直非常努力去“压制”社会动乱的征兆，而不是建立和培养起一种缓和的机制。官僚机器——通常是高效、冷淡、不人性化且无情的——常常引发与它所消解的社会怨恨等量的怨恨。
中国的转型取决于这些紧张和冲突是如何解决的。像校园袭击这样的事件在中国这样一个政治化的国家有极其长远的政治意义。就算是孤立、偶然的，这些事件极易获取政治意义，给中央和地方政府以及原本就脆弱的政府和各社会构成间的信任关系带来了强大压力。
中国有句谚语，将人民比喻成水，统治者比喻成舟。它是这样说的：水能载舟亦能覆舟。中国的领导层应该都深谙此道，他们也正出台一些列社会保障计划，包括最低生活水平保障网络、养老计划和医疗保障等，旨在覆盖更大的贫困人民群体。
然后，在缺乏鼓励地方政府解决问题能力机制的情况下，这些公共项目在日益扩散的社会紧张局势中的实际功效还有待观察。
中国的校园伤害案件和社会绝望
过去的两个月，中国政府正努力应对一系列边远地区伤害小学生的恶性伤害事件。他们已经以担心模仿案件的出现为由对新闻界施压，并呼吁加强学校安保工作。然而，5月12日，又有一名男性气势汹汹地冲入陕西省的一所农村学校，夺走了七名孩子和两名成人的生命。这是自三月份以来的第五起校园伤害案件，作案人均系持匕首、坎肉刀或其它作案工具的中年男性。在这几起伤害案中，共17人死亡、近100人受伤。
几位评论员说这些袭击案是一个急速发展社会中极端压力的征兆，是政府尚未意识到的一股暗涌。
袭击案的政治意义
Zhou Xueguang 是一位社会学教授、斯坦福大学弗里曼斯波利研究所国际问题研究所高级研究员，目前任教于斯坦福大学北京计划项目。
校园袭击案的种种细节还有待理清——这些校园袭击案是孤立事件还是模仿案件；是因精神疾病引起的还是基于恶意动机的。但是有一个问题是非常明确的：这些事件是当今中国社会中广泛、快速增长的社会焦虑、沮丧和紧张的反映。
从一个层面上来说，这样的紧张状态在任何一个急速变化的社会中都几乎是不可避免的。当今的中国正在经历一个广泛和快速的变革，而这种广度和深度在中国的漫长历史中都是甚少出现的。
大范围的城市化，很多情况下其实是强迫推进的城市化，通过农村和城市地区的迁移、土地占有和居民重置来实现。令人惊恐的社会不公已经是个人在日常生活中所经历的赤裸裸的现实。尤其是大城市飞涨的房价，近年来涨了三到四倍，给富人和穷人间划上了一道深不可测的分界线。
在北京或是其它大城市的街道上闲逛，你能看到那些大门有警卫守卫、需要刷卡进入而且有精心打理的小径和绿化的住宅区。住宅区的高墙将墙内的富人和墙外的噪音和人群分隔开来。
然而，对于一个大学毕业生来说，即便是在大城市有一份体面的工作，在暴涨的房价面前，也不敢奢望在其有生之年能拥有属于一处自己的房子。这与早前的改革时期大不相同，那时的改革政策，尤其是将土地包产到户的政策，引起了生产力的大幅提高并惠及了人口总数中的大多数。
传统的家庭自给自足及邻里间互相帮扶的传统的社会格局已无法应对社会错位、社会封闭和特定群体边缘化的增长。
现在，绝望和怨恨的根源很深。社会学家用“社会混乱”(anomie)来描述社会规范和价值的坍塌。而校园袭击事件很可能就是这些日益紧绷的紧张状态的爆发。
从另一个层面上说，真正令人不安的是中国政府处理这种冲突的方式。它一直非常努力去“压制”社会动乱的征兆，而不是建立和培养起一种缓和的机制。官僚机器——通常是高效、冷淡、不人性化且无情的——常常引发与它所消解的社会怨恨等量的怨恨。
中国的转型取决于这些紧张和冲突是如何解决的。像校园袭击这样的事件在中国这样一个政治化的国家有极其长远的政治意义。就算是孤立、偶然的，这些事件极易获取政治意义，给中央和地方政府以及原本就脆弱的政府和各社会构成间的信任关系带来了强大压力。
中国有句谚语，将人民比喻成水，统治者比喻成舟。它是这样说的：水能载舟亦能覆舟。中国的领导层应该都深谙此道，他们也正出台一些列社会保障计划，包括最低生活水平保障网络、养老计划和医疗保障等，旨在覆盖更大的贫困人民群体。
然后，在缺乏鼓励地方政府解决问题能力机制的情况下，这些公共项目在日益扩散的社会紧张局势中的实际功效还有待观察。
2010年5月1日星期六
當我離開你的時候-左小祖咒 陳珊妮
你听说我要离开家乡的时候
亲爱的人儿你不一定非哭不可
当你看到浓烟离开炮火的时候
亲爱的人儿你不一定非笑不可
你更多地依靠我的展示方式
不是因为爱情多么令人陶醉
这需要你去吹出那个音调
吃上点胡椒
但是我会让你懂得什么是骄傲
你看,当人们走近你的时候
他们不知道谦卑得有些轻佻
象夏日的微风
象夏日的微风
你若是要嫁人不要嫁给我
因为我和你一样要得太多
除非你得到的又全部失去
象赤贫的石头
象赤贫的石头
当你听说我要离开家乡的时候
亲爱的人儿你不一定非哭不可
当你看到浓烟离开炮火的时候
亲爱的人儿你不一定非笑不可
亲爱的人儿
When you hear I’m leaving my hometown,
My darling, you don’t have to cry.
When you see thick smokes drift away from gun fires,
My darling, you don’t have to smile.
You are more dependent on my expressing style,
Not because love is incredibly intoxicating.
It needs you to blow the tone.
Eat some pepper.
But I’ll make you understand what pride is.
Look, when people approach you,
They don’t know their modesty seems frivolous,
Like a summer breeze
Like a summer breeze.
If you want to get married, don’t marry me.
‘cause I’m as greedy as you are.
Unless you lose whatever you’ve got,
Like an impoverished rock
Like an impoverished rock.
When you hear I’m leaving my hometown,
My darling, you don’t have to cry.
When you see thick smokes drift away from gun fires,
My darling, you don’t have to smile.
My darling.
亲爱的人儿你不一定非哭不可
当你看到浓烟离开炮火的时候
亲爱的人儿你不一定非笑不可
你更多地依靠我的展示方式
不是因为爱情多么令人陶醉
这需要你去吹出那个音调
吃上点胡椒
但是我会让你懂得什么是骄傲
你看,当人们走近你的时候
他们不知道谦卑得有些轻佻
象夏日的微风
象夏日的微风
你若是要嫁人不要嫁给我
因为我和你一样要得太多
除非你得到的又全部失去
象赤贫的石头
象赤贫的石头
当你听说我要离开家乡的时候
亲爱的人儿你不一定非哭不可
当你看到浓烟离开炮火的时候
亲爱的人儿你不一定非笑不可
亲爱的人儿
When you hear I’m leaving my hometown,
My darling, you don’t have to cry.
When you see thick smokes drift away from gun fires,
My darling, you don’t have to smile.
You are more dependent on my expressing style,
Not because love is incredibly intoxicating.
It needs you to blow the tone.
Eat some pepper.
But I’ll make you understand what pride is.
Look, when people approach you,
They don’t know their modesty seems frivolous,
Like a summer breeze
Like a summer breeze.
If you want to get married, don’t marry me.
‘cause I’m as greedy as you are.
Unless you lose whatever you’ve got,
Like an impoverished rock
Like an impoverished rock.
When you hear I’m leaving my hometown,
My darling, you don’t have to cry.
When you see thick smokes drift away from gun fires,
My darling, you don’t have to smile.
My darling.
2010年4月25日星期日
網絡時代的咖啡館情結
Café complex in the Internet age
By Lin Fen
http://www.nbweekly.com/Print/Article/7400_0.shtml
Loneliness makes people long for the unloneliness in form. Cafés and the internet happen to provide us with the unloneliness in form. Apprehensions cause people to establish a bottom line for their demands for privacy. In cafés, we sit next to each other; while on the Internet, we have different IDs. Consequently, cafés, the private space inlaid in public space, appear to be more charming and attractive than pure private space.
In an age where friends are able to learn about every move you make via Internet, by indulging yourself in cafés, you seem to have labeled yourself as the legacy from pre-electronic age.
In the fascinating and confusing place, you are likely to encounter three types of people: firstly, the Only-socializing kind. For them, cafés are only a public place where they can meet friends. And this public place they need could be cafés, movie theatres, restaurants, or Facebook or Second Life.
Another type is the Convenience-comes-foremost kind. They go to cafés for a convenient short break. Wisteria Hut isn’t any different from Starbucks. For this kind, they can buy high quality coffee beans and brew aromatic coffee for themselves at home.
The third kind is those who are obsessed with cafés. They love to meet their friends or take a break there. They also often come alone reading or writing. It seems that there is some kind of magic spreading in the air in the coffee houses. These people have a dedicate taste on coffee; they are picky about the tables and chairs, and the table ware; they are picky about the music, the color of the paint on the wall; even picky about a total stranger under the eaves. In other peoples’ impression, they are those petty bourgeois who don’t want to spend 800,000 HKD on a house, but who’d rather pay 80 HKD for a taste of bitterness.
Personally, I’m not obsessed with coffee, but now and then an upsurge of longing for coffee aroma would emerge in my blood. Therefore, I’m labeled as the third kind by my friends.
Among a number of different styles of cafés, those located in the airport don’t have the classy taste, but it’s where I can write most efficiently. Seeing those passengers drifting from place to place like I do, I have a strong sense of sympathy, which makes me feel calm and settled. What makes me so infatuated with such space?
Is it the legend depicted by Habermas? In the 18th century’s Europe, inequality of social status between people retreated in the space of salons, cafés and tea houses. Rational reasoning was the basis for discussions. That so-called ‘public space for bourgeois’ became a place where citizens could participate in political affairs, and a transitional region between public authorities and individuals’ personal territory. The scent of the ink and the disagreements among people led to establishment of literary and artistic, then political, common territory.
However, in Habermas’ portrait, democracy bred in this space wasn’t able to avoid the destiny of its deterioration during the age of mass media: rationality was buried by profits; criticism was replaced by consumerism. During the television age, the liveliness in cafés lost its missionary rosiness it had several centuries earlier. It simply became a commodity.
Up till the electronic age, people in cafés just take their own spots and mind their own businesses, or just chat with friends via Internet. This public space seems to be in harmony with the early legend, but they are at variance, not to mention the possibility that everyone entering the room has the ambition that this very cup of coffee may bear some connections with an enormous institutional transformation in the future. That only exists in fantasies.
In this case, what does this space mean to individuals in this Internet age? Are coffee aroma and the convenience for meeting friends enough to maintain the loyalty of the third kind of people? What is the individuals’ psychological basis for this café culture that has lasted for centuries?
First of all, it’s the sense of privacy hiding in public space. Many of our behaviors can be attributed to two basis sentiments—loneliness and apprehension. Loneliness makes people long for the unloneliness in form. Cafés and the internet happen to provide us with the unloneliness in form. Apprehensions cause people to establish a bottom line for their demands for privacy. In cafés, we sit next to each other; while on the Internet, we have different IDs.
More importantly, in here, it’s possible that the boundary between public and private space can be pushed back and forth. You may see familiar strangers in a coffee house, just like I suddenly catch sight of half of a face with a déjà vu experience—it’s a playwright known as the wizard. I have read his writing, but never met him in person. Similarly, a unfamiliar ID may pop onto your computer screen and makes your thoughts wonder, but you still have the liberty to respond to it or not.
That kind of quick change in boundary makes the private space inlaid in public space more attractive and charm than pure private space. And this charm is rooted in the potential tension of one’s self-awareness. There are two parts of individuals’ self-awareness. One is the awareness of ‘who am I’, which focuses on the self in private space; the other is the awareness of ‘who should I be’ in other people’s perceptions, which concerns the self in public space. In self-awareness, the self and the alter ego don’t only co-exist, they might be conflicting with each other sometimes, which leads to our dependence on the space where the self and the alter ego can be tolerated, such as cafés and the Internet. It also influence the way we behave within that space.
Surely, the prerequisite for the charm is that the alteration between public and private space is not compelled by force. Therefore, either in cafés or on the Internet, individuals’ behaviors should be constrained by relevant law and regulations. Leisure centers are another example of voluntary alteration between public and private space. In there, a group of men and women, old or young, are dressed in pajamas in the same style and are arranged into the same look. In this kind of space, private space is publicized. The discrepancies in wealth, sex and skin color are simplified into the difference between blue color and red color. Maybe just because the external discrepancies are artificially eliminated, this place can truly become a space for leisure and relaxation.
To be concise, this psychological basis underlines the café complex; it also constructs the psychological basis of the Internet-oriented people. Convenient and fast technology can move real public space into a virtual world, and is able to reduce the rosy café culture into bare consumerism. However, what technology hasn’t changed, or what it’s unable to change, is the balance between the self and the alter ego hidden in every moment of daily life; is the non-stoppable tangling between public and private space in different forms; is the confrontation between individuals and the masses in every revolutionary age.
It’s true during the modernization process; it’s true during the globalization proceedings. It’s true for each individual; it’s true for every nation.
By Lin Fen
http://www.nbweekly.com/Print/Article/7400_0.shtml
Loneliness makes people long for the unloneliness in form. Cafés and the internet happen to provide us with the unloneliness in form. Apprehensions cause people to establish a bottom line for their demands for privacy. In cafés, we sit next to each other; while on the Internet, we have different IDs. Consequently, cafés, the private space inlaid in public space, appear to be more charming and attractive than pure private space.
In an age where friends are able to learn about every move you make via Internet, by indulging yourself in cafés, you seem to have labeled yourself as the legacy from pre-electronic age.
In the fascinating and confusing place, you are likely to encounter three types of people: firstly, the Only-socializing kind. For them, cafés are only a public place where they can meet friends. And this public place they need could be cafés, movie theatres, restaurants, or Facebook or Second Life.
Another type is the Convenience-comes-foremost kind. They go to cafés for a convenient short break. Wisteria Hut isn’t any different from Starbucks. For this kind, they can buy high quality coffee beans and brew aromatic coffee for themselves at home.
The third kind is those who are obsessed with cafés. They love to meet their friends or take a break there. They also often come alone reading or writing. It seems that there is some kind of magic spreading in the air in the coffee houses. These people have a dedicate taste on coffee; they are picky about the tables and chairs, and the table ware; they are picky about the music, the color of the paint on the wall; even picky about a total stranger under the eaves. In other peoples’ impression, they are those petty bourgeois who don’t want to spend 800,000 HKD on a house, but who’d rather pay 80 HKD for a taste of bitterness.
Personally, I’m not obsessed with coffee, but now and then an upsurge of longing for coffee aroma would emerge in my blood. Therefore, I’m labeled as the third kind by my friends.
Among a number of different styles of cafés, those located in the airport don’t have the classy taste, but it’s where I can write most efficiently. Seeing those passengers drifting from place to place like I do, I have a strong sense of sympathy, which makes me feel calm and settled. What makes me so infatuated with such space?
Is it the legend depicted by Habermas? In the 18th century’s Europe, inequality of social status between people retreated in the space of salons, cafés and tea houses. Rational reasoning was the basis for discussions. That so-called ‘public space for bourgeois’ became a place where citizens could participate in political affairs, and a transitional region between public authorities and individuals’ personal territory. The scent of the ink and the disagreements among people led to establishment of literary and artistic, then political, common territory.
However, in Habermas’ portrait, democracy bred in this space wasn’t able to avoid the destiny of its deterioration during the age of mass media: rationality was buried by profits; criticism was replaced by consumerism. During the television age, the liveliness in cafés lost its missionary rosiness it had several centuries earlier. It simply became a commodity.
Up till the electronic age, people in cafés just take their own spots and mind their own businesses, or just chat with friends via Internet. This public space seems to be in harmony with the early legend, but they are at variance, not to mention the possibility that everyone entering the room has the ambition that this very cup of coffee may bear some connections with an enormous institutional transformation in the future. That only exists in fantasies.
In this case, what does this space mean to individuals in this Internet age? Are coffee aroma and the convenience for meeting friends enough to maintain the loyalty of the third kind of people? What is the individuals’ psychological basis for this café culture that has lasted for centuries?
First of all, it’s the sense of privacy hiding in public space. Many of our behaviors can be attributed to two basis sentiments—loneliness and apprehension. Loneliness makes people long for the unloneliness in form. Cafés and the internet happen to provide us with the unloneliness in form. Apprehensions cause people to establish a bottom line for their demands for privacy. In cafés, we sit next to each other; while on the Internet, we have different IDs.
More importantly, in here, it’s possible that the boundary between public and private space can be pushed back and forth. You may see familiar strangers in a coffee house, just like I suddenly catch sight of half of a face with a déjà vu experience—it’s a playwright known as the wizard. I have read his writing, but never met him in person. Similarly, a unfamiliar ID may pop onto your computer screen and makes your thoughts wonder, but you still have the liberty to respond to it or not.
That kind of quick change in boundary makes the private space inlaid in public space more attractive and charm than pure private space. And this charm is rooted in the potential tension of one’s self-awareness. There are two parts of individuals’ self-awareness. One is the awareness of ‘who am I’, which focuses on the self in private space; the other is the awareness of ‘who should I be’ in other people’s perceptions, which concerns the self in public space. In self-awareness, the self and the alter ego don’t only co-exist, they might be conflicting with each other sometimes, which leads to our dependence on the space where the self and the alter ego can be tolerated, such as cafés and the Internet. It also influence the way we behave within that space.
Surely, the prerequisite for the charm is that the alteration between public and private space is not compelled by force. Therefore, either in cafés or on the Internet, individuals’ behaviors should be constrained by relevant law and regulations. Leisure centers are another example of voluntary alteration between public and private space. In there, a group of men and women, old or young, are dressed in pajamas in the same style and are arranged into the same look. In this kind of space, private space is publicized. The discrepancies in wealth, sex and skin color are simplified into the difference between blue color and red color. Maybe just because the external discrepancies are artificially eliminated, this place can truly become a space for leisure and relaxation.
To be concise, this psychological basis underlines the café complex; it also constructs the psychological basis of the Internet-oriented people. Convenient and fast technology can move real public space into a virtual world, and is able to reduce the rosy café culture into bare consumerism. However, what technology hasn’t changed, or what it’s unable to change, is the balance between the self and the alter ego hidden in every moment of daily life; is the non-stoppable tangling between public and private space in different forms; is the confrontation between individuals and the masses in every revolutionary age.
It’s true during the modernization process; it’s true during the globalization proceedings. It’s true for each individual; it’s true for every nation.
2010年4月24日星期六
要么杂种、要么绝种，没有纯种
http://www.my1510.cn/article.php?id=21c36aed00d54eb5
Hybrid or dead, no purebred
China’s State Administration for Radio, Film and Television (SARFT) has issued a set of regulations that prohibits the use of English initials. Their motives are not specified, but they have plenty of reasons, one of which is said to defend the purity of the Chinese language.
The attempt to defend the purity of a language is absolutely a stupid idea, and it’s not going to succeed anyway. Just like attempting to defend the women’s virginity, if the women of a nation all stayed as virgins, the nation would become extinct.
Hybrid vigor exists in biology. Same with a language. English, the most powerful language in the world, is said to come up with thousands of new words every year. The English language is screwed up by English speaking countries all over the world. However, just because of the ‘mating’, it’s become the most powerful language.
If the language of a nation becomes more and more impure, it just suggests that it’s becoming increasingly more powerful, which is an excellent thing one would wish for. If there were a SARFT in the UK, they wouldn’t be stupid enough to issue a regulation to forbid the use of English initials.
Vitality is dependent on hybrid. In this world, it’s either hybrid, or dead, never purebred.
People in China start learning English since they kindergarten. Up till graduation from college, English learning lasts for ten to twenty years. Why would you learn it if you don’t use it at all? After the opening-up and reform, along with the increasingly wider and deeper economical and cultural exchange, the chances for Chinese people to use English has been increasing as well. More and more English expressions have been integrated into the Chinese language. They’ve become conventional, and impossible to tear apart. Moreover, it is concise, convenient and fast to use English initials. What’s not good about it anyway?
Regarding the language inclusion of Chinese and English, some people are unhappy about it; some just fail to understand it. But we cannot cruelly deprive people of their rights to use English or English initials just because some people are unhappy about it or some people cannot understand it.
Being unhappy is just a personal feeling. I have nothing to say about it but being respectful. Let’s just take a look at the part of failing to understand:
As we all know, the majority of English initials are technical terms. Even though we transform those terms into Chinese, laymen still cannot understand them. For example, ‘HTTP’ means Hyper Text Transfer Protocol, ‘USB’ stands for Universal Serial BUS. May I ask, do non-professionals of computer sciences have the slightest idea about what they mean? Even though those terms are translated into Chinese, people still don’t understand them. What’s the point to forbid the use of English initials? Why don’t we just let those who understand English initials use them for free expressions?
Anyway, SARFT’s restrictions on the use of English initials may yield some results in a short term, but it won’t be effective in the long run. Such a thing as language is impossible to restrict. No force can prevent the tendency of the Chinese language integrating with foreign languages.
Because we live in an era of global integration.
In this era, different races, cultures, political systems, legal systems, customs, daily lives from all over the world, all aspects of human life, are seeking mutual acceptance and approaching Great Harmony. How can language possibly become an exception?
Hybrid or dead, no purebred
China’s State Administration for Radio, Film and Television (SARFT) has issued a set of regulations that prohibits the use of English initials. Their motives are not specified, but they have plenty of reasons, one of which is said to defend the purity of the Chinese language.
The attempt to defend the purity of a language is absolutely a stupid idea, and it’s not going to succeed anyway. Just like attempting to defend the women’s virginity, if the women of a nation all stayed as virgins, the nation would become extinct.
Hybrid vigor exists in biology. Same with a language. English, the most powerful language in the world, is said to come up with thousands of new words every year. The English language is screwed up by English speaking countries all over the world. However, just because of the ‘mating’, it’s become the most powerful language.
If the language of a nation becomes more and more impure, it just suggests that it’s becoming increasingly more powerful, which is an excellent thing one would wish for. If there were a SARFT in the UK, they wouldn’t be stupid enough to issue a regulation to forbid the use of English initials.
Vitality is dependent on hybrid. In this world, it’s either hybrid, or dead, never purebred.
People in China start learning English since they kindergarten. Up till graduation from college, English learning lasts for ten to twenty years. Why would you learn it if you don’t use it at all? After the opening-up and reform, along with the increasingly wider and deeper economical and cultural exchange, the chances for Chinese people to use English has been increasing as well. More and more English expressions have been integrated into the Chinese language. They’ve become conventional, and impossible to tear apart. Moreover, it is concise, convenient and fast to use English initials. What’s not good about it anyway?
Regarding the language inclusion of Chinese and English, some people are unhappy about it; some just fail to understand it. But we cannot cruelly deprive people of their rights to use English or English initials just because some people are unhappy about it or some people cannot understand it.
Being unhappy is just a personal feeling. I have nothing to say about it but being respectful. Let’s just take a look at the part of failing to understand:
As we all know, the majority of English initials are technical terms. Even though we transform those terms into Chinese, laymen still cannot understand them. For example, ‘HTTP’ means Hyper Text Transfer Protocol, ‘USB’ stands for Universal Serial BUS. May I ask, do non-professionals of computer sciences have the slightest idea about what they mean? Even though those terms are translated into Chinese, people still don’t understand them. What’s the point to forbid the use of English initials? Why don’t we just let those who understand English initials use them for free expressions?
Anyway, SARFT’s restrictions on the use of English initials may yield some results in a short term, but it won’t be effective in the long run. Such a thing as language is impossible to restrict. No force can prevent the tendency of the Chinese language integrating with foreign languages.
Because we live in an era of global integration.
In this era, different races, cultures, political systems, legal systems, customs, daily lives from all over the world, all aspects of human life, are seeking mutual acceptance and approaching Great Harmony. How can language possibly become an exception?
2010年4月22日星期四
Treasure your pains
像韩寒那样珍惜你的痛感
Treasure your pains as Han Han does
by commentator Xiao Shu
韩寒已经是美国 《时代》周刊2010年 “全球最具影响力人物”的候选人，而且在200名候选人中名列前茅。
Han Han is now one of the candidates for Times magazine’s ‘most influential people in the world’, and he is now coming out on top among all 200 candidates.
人们开始争论：可不可以说，韩寒已具有全球影响力？这个争论并没有意义。最需要韩寒的不是国际社会，而是他的同胞。所以，韩寒最需要的不是什么全球影响力，而是在中国的影响力。
People start discussing: can we say that Han Han has gained international influence? This discussion actually makes not much sense. The one who needs Han Han most is not the international community, but his fellow citizens. Thus, what he needs is not the so-called international influence, but the very influence he has in China.
就在前几天，广西合浦发生一起惨案，凶手在小学放学途中追杀妇孺，致二死五伤。
Several days ago, a tragic murder case happened in Hepu, Guangxi Province, where the murderer chased after children and women around a primary school right after the students were being dismissed, leaving two dead and five injured.
而在合浦惨案之前，福建刚刚发生郑民生凶杀案。郑民生这个恶魔，仅仅因为所谓不满现实，就计划要杀掉三十多个孩子来报复社会。虽未完全得手，但仍有八个可怜的孩子死在他的刀下。
And right before the Hepu case, another murder case just happened in Fujian Province. Ferocious Zheng Minsheng planned to kill more than 30 children to take revenge against the society only because he was unsatisfied with the reality. He didn’t accomplish his whole plan, but two innocent poor kids went dead under his blade.
孩子是一个民族的未来，应该受到最严格的保护。但在我们的社会中，恰恰是孩子最受伤。被问题疫苗伤害的主要是孩子，被问题奶粉伤害的主要是孩子，被豆腐渣建筑伤害的主要是孩子。现在，歹徒报复社会的对象竟然也主要是孩子。有人说郑民生有精神病；合浦惨案后，地方当局也说凶手有精神病。其实受伤孩子那么多，有病的何止一两个凶手。
Children are the future of a nation, and they deserve to be rigorously protected. However, in our society, children tend to get hurt more often. In the defective vaccine case, in the milk powder and in the shoddy construction case, children are the ones that take most of the consequences. Now, children have even become the major sufferers of the outlaws’ revenge against society. Some say Zheng Minsheng is a psycho; in the Hepu murder case, local authority claimed that the criminal had mental disorders. There have been so many kids getting hurt, and the number of psychopaths is far more than two.
不错，我们的国家依然强大，而且越来越强大。但国家强大不是万应灵药。现在就一方面是经济总量在不断增长；但另一方面，社会溃烂的势头仍难遏制，以致孩子成了受害者，以致外媒都在惊呼：社会转型不要以孩子为代价。
It’s true that our nation is still powerful, as a matter of fact, it’s becoming increasingly more powerful. But the power a nation has is not a panacea. On one hand, our GDP has been constantly increasing; while on the other hand, the tendency of social deterioration stays difficult to fight against, and consequently, so many children have become its victims that foreign media are exclaiming: don’t proceed social transition at the expense of children’s benefit.
所以韩寒在中国的影响力才最重要。这是因为，我们不仅需要国家的强大，我们还需要——甚至更需要——公民社会。而韩寒则是公民标本。
It makes significant Han Han’s domestic influence. It’s because that what we need is not only the mightiness of our country, but also a civil society—maybe we need this more than the other. And Han Han is a civil model.
韩寒现在的地位无疑蒸蒸日上。但也有人不服气：韩寒有什么了不起？深刻不如鲁迅，智慧不如胡适，高尚不如德兰修女，壮烈不如林昭、张志新。的确，相比于中外先贤，韩寒太普通了，普通得跟我们每个人几乎一模一样。但这才是韩寒最有力量的地方，他越是普通，他就越有普遍性，就越是可以推广。他具备的很多元素，的确都平常，的确我们都具备。说到底他无非比我们多了一样东西，那就是公民的气质，那就是率性，那就是真实。
There is no doubt that Han Han’s status has been rising. But some people are not convinced: what’s good of him? He is not thinking as profoundly as Lu Xun, not as wise as Hu Shi, not as noble as Mother Teresa, and not as brave and honorable as Lin Zhan and Zhang Zhixin. Indeed, compared with sages of the past all over the world, Han Han is way too ordinary, almost as ordinary as every single one of us. However, this is exactly where his power lies. The more ordinary he seems, the more commonality he stands for, and the more applicable he is. Many elements he possesses are indeed quite common, and we are all equipped with those elements. After all, he has only one more quality than us—the civil temperament. It’s natural disposition and staying real.
正是率性而真实的公民气质，使韩寒能够自由言说，说出自己在这个社会中的痛感。这痛感犹如盐，不需太多，就那么一点点，他的境界就跟我们迥然不同了。他自由地言说，爱他所爱，恨他所恨，但是有代价吗？有不能承受之重吗？没有。这说明无奈无论怎样深重，也没到我们想象的程度，我们不必自己吓自己。
It’s just the natural and real civil temperament of him that makes him able to speak freely, to speak out his pains in this society. The pain is like salt, which we don’t need a lot, but just a bit of it makes him reach a higher level than us. He speaks what he wants to speak, loves what he loves, hate what he hates, but is there any price he has to pay? Is there any unbearable weight he has to carry? No. It’s telling us that no matter how intolerable it is, it’s not reached the level we imagine, and we don’t have to scared.
看看韩寒，多爽朗，多快乐，多阳光。他说出他的痛感，但他无须浸淫在悲苦之中，无须那么愁云惨淡。病往往都是憋出来的，韩寒不憋，韩寒不委屈自己，他说出来了，说出来他就得救了，他就有尊严了，他就健康了。就可以作为一个正常人，享受他的尊严，享受他的健康，享受他的正常的生活了。
Look at him. How cheerful, joyful and bright. He tells his pains, but he doesn’t have to be immerged in the sorrow and pain; he doesn’t have to be miserable. Sickness usually comes from holding back the feelings. Han Han doesn’t hold his feelings back; he doesn’t suppress his feelings; he speaks it out. And he is rescued; he defends his dignity; he is healthy. He is able to enjoy his dignity, his healthiness and his normal life, as a normal person would do.
这正是公民社会的旨趣所在。它不是要对抗什么，不是要反叛什么，不是要颠覆什么。它不过是一个一个人的自我救治，不过是一个一个社会细胞的自我修复。不是外科切除，而是精确改良，微观演进，用新生命的生长遏制社会的溃烂。这之于我们可能是最现实也最可行的选择。先贤对我们来说固然重要，他们昭示着人类可能达到的精神高度。但先贤跟我们实在落差太大，我们往往没有献身的勇气，心向往而实不能至。但没关系，韩寒就在我们眼前，我们学韩寒就可以了。韩寒无非比我们高出半个头，至多一个头。我们使劲往上跳一跳，甚至只需要踮踮脚尖，也能达到跟他一样的高度。那么，我们何乐不为？
That is exactly where the purpose and joy of a civil society lie. It’s not about fighting against something, not about being rebellious of something, and not about subverting something. It’s merely self-salvation of every single person, and self-healing of every single social cell. It’s not surgical excision, but precise modification and micro-evolution; it’s about constraining social damages with the growing new life. For us, it’s probably the most realistic and feasible option. Sages of the past are certainly important to us, since they made clear to us the spiritual level human kind can possibly reach. But they are too distant from us, and we usually don’t have the courage to devote ourselves into the undertakings, so we cannot reach their level even thought we yearn for it. But the good thing is, Han Han is right in sight. We can easily learn something from him. He may be just one step ahead of us, two steps at most. We could catch up with him by simply taking a leap. Why not give it a try?
像韩寒那样，珍惜你的痛感，珍惜你喊痛的权利，使韩寒成为潮流，成为时尚。如此，我们的社会才没有那么多丧心病狂的精神病杀手，我们才救得了孩子，救得了我们自己。
Treasure your pains like Han Han does with his. Treasure your rights to cry out of your pains, and see Han Han as a trend and fashion. In this way, we won’t have as many lunatic psychopath killers in the society. Only in this way, we can save the children, and ourselves.
South Weekend
Link: http://www.infzm.com/content/43823
Treasure your pains as Han Han does
by commentator Xiao Shu
韩寒已经是美国 《时代》周刊2010年 “全球最具影响力人物”的候选人，而且在200名候选人中名列前茅。
Han Han is now one of the candidates for Times magazine’s ‘most influential people in the world’, and he is now coming out on top among all 200 candidates.
人们开始争论：可不可以说，韩寒已具有全球影响力？这个争论并没有意义。最需要韩寒的不是国际社会，而是他的同胞。所以，韩寒最需要的不是什么全球影响力，而是在中国的影响力。
People start discussing: can we say that Han Han has gained international influence? This discussion actually makes not much sense. The one who needs Han Han most is not the international community, but his fellow citizens. Thus, what he needs is not the so-called international influence, but the very influence he has in China.
就在前几天，广西合浦发生一起惨案，凶手在小学放学途中追杀妇孺，致二死五伤。
Several days ago, a tragic murder case happened in Hepu, Guangxi Province, where the murderer chased after children and women around a primary school right after the students were being dismissed, leaving two dead and five injured.
而在合浦惨案之前，福建刚刚发生郑民生凶杀案。郑民生这个恶魔，仅仅因为所谓不满现实，就计划要杀掉三十多个孩子来报复社会。虽未完全得手，但仍有八个可怜的孩子死在他的刀下。
And right before the Hepu case, another murder case just happened in Fujian Province. Ferocious Zheng Minsheng planned to kill more than 30 children to take revenge against the society only because he was unsatisfied with the reality. He didn’t accomplish his whole plan, but two innocent poor kids went dead under his blade.
孩子是一个民族的未来，应该受到最严格的保护。但在我们的社会中，恰恰是孩子最受伤。被问题疫苗伤害的主要是孩子，被问题奶粉伤害的主要是孩子，被豆腐渣建筑伤害的主要是孩子。现在，歹徒报复社会的对象竟然也主要是孩子。有人说郑民生有精神病；合浦惨案后，地方当局也说凶手有精神病。其实受伤孩子那么多，有病的何止一两个凶手。
Children are the future of a nation, and they deserve to be rigorously protected. However, in our society, children tend to get hurt more often. In the defective vaccine case, in the milk powder and in the shoddy construction case, children are the ones that take most of the consequences. Now, children have even become the major sufferers of the outlaws’ revenge against society. Some say Zheng Minsheng is a psycho; in the Hepu murder case, local authority claimed that the criminal had mental disorders. There have been so many kids getting hurt, and the number of psychopaths is far more than two.
不错，我们的国家依然强大，而且越来越强大。但国家强大不是万应灵药。现在就一方面是经济总量在不断增长；但另一方面，社会溃烂的势头仍难遏制，以致孩子成了受害者，以致外媒都在惊呼：社会转型不要以孩子为代价。
It’s true that our nation is still powerful, as a matter of fact, it’s becoming increasingly more powerful. But the power a nation has is not a panacea. On one hand, our GDP has been constantly increasing; while on the other hand, the tendency of social deterioration stays difficult to fight against, and consequently, so many children have become its victims that foreign media are exclaiming: don’t proceed social transition at the expense of children’s benefit.
所以韩寒在中国的影响力才最重要。这是因为，我们不仅需要国家的强大，我们还需要——甚至更需要——公民社会。而韩寒则是公民标本。
It makes significant Han Han’s domestic influence. It’s because that what we need is not only the mightiness of our country, but also a civil society—maybe we need this more than the other. And Han Han is a civil model.
韩寒现在的地位无疑蒸蒸日上。但也有人不服气：韩寒有什么了不起？深刻不如鲁迅，智慧不如胡适，高尚不如德兰修女，壮烈不如林昭、张志新。的确，相比于中外先贤，韩寒太普通了，普通得跟我们每个人几乎一模一样。但这才是韩寒最有力量的地方，他越是普通，他就越有普遍性，就越是可以推广。他具备的很多元素，的确都平常，的确我们都具备。说到底他无非比我们多了一样东西，那就是公民的气质，那就是率性，那就是真实。
There is no doubt that Han Han’s status has been rising. But some people are not convinced: what’s good of him? He is not thinking as profoundly as Lu Xun, not as wise as Hu Shi, not as noble as Mother Teresa, and not as brave and honorable as Lin Zhan and Zhang Zhixin. Indeed, compared with sages of the past all over the world, Han Han is way too ordinary, almost as ordinary as every single one of us. However, this is exactly where his power lies. The more ordinary he seems, the more commonality he stands for, and the more applicable he is. Many elements he possesses are indeed quite common, and we are all equipped with those elements. After all, he has only one more quality than us—the civil temperament. It’s natural disposition and staying real.
正是率性而真实的公民气质，使韩寒能够自由言说，说出自己在这个社会中的痛感。这痛感犹如盐，不需太多，就那么一点点，他的境界就跟我们迥然不同了。他自由地言说，爱他所爱，恨他所恨，但是有代价吗？有不能承受之重吗？没有。这说明无奈无论怎样深重，也没到我们想象的程度，我们不必自己吓自己。
It’s just the natural and real civil temperament of him that makes him able to speak freely, to speak out his pains in this society. The pain is like salt, which we don’t need a lot, but just a bit of it makes him reach a higher level than us. He speaks what he wants to speak, loves what he loves, hate what he hates, but is there any price he has to pay? Is there any unbearable weight he has to carry? No. It’s telling us that no matter how intolerable it is, it’s not reached the level we imagine, and we don’t have to scared.
看看韩寒，多爽朗，多快乐，多阳光。他说出他的痛感，但他无须浸淫在悲苦之中，无须那么愁云惨淡。病往往都是憋出来的，韩寒不憋，韩寒不委屈自己，他说出来了，说出来他就得救了，他就有尊严了，他就健康了。就可以作为一个正常人，享受他的尊严，享受他的健康，享受他的正常的生活了。
Look at him. How cheerful, joyful and bright. He tells his pains, but he doesn’t have to be immerged in the sorrow and pain; he doesn’t have to be miserable. Sickness usually comes from holding back the feelings. Han Han doesn’t hold his feelings back; he doesn’t suppress his feelings; he speaks it out. And he is rescued; he defends his dignity; he is healthy. He is able to enjoy his dignity, his healthiness and his normal life, as a normal person would do.
这正是公民社会的旨趣所在。它不是要对抗什么，不是要反叛什么，不是要颠覆什么。它不过是一个一个人的自我救治，不过是一个一个社会细胞的自我修复。不是外科切除，而是精确改良，微观演进，用新生命的生长遏制社会的溃烂。这之于我们可能是最现实也最可行的选择。先贤对我们来说固然重要，他们昭示着人类可能达到的精神高度。但先贤跟我们实在落差太大，我们往往没有献身的勇气，心向往而实不能至。但没关系，韩寒就在我们眼前，我们学韩寒就可以了。韩寒无非比我们高出半个头，至多一个头。我们使劲往上跳一跳，甚至只需要踮踮脚尖，也能达到跟他一样的高度。那么，我们何乐不为？
That is exactly where the purpose and joy of a civil society lie. It’s not about fighting against something, not about being rebellious of something, and not about subverting something. It’s merely self-salvation of every single person, and self-healing of every single social cell. It’s not surgical excision, but precise modification and micro-evolution; it’s about constraining social damages with the growing new life. For us, it’s probably the most realistic and feasible option. Sages of the past are certainly important to us, since they made clear to us the spiritual level human kind can possibly reach. But they are too distant from us, and we usually don’t have the courage to devote ourselves into the undertakings, so we cannot reach their level even thought we yearn for it. But the good thing is, Han Han is right in sight. We can easily learn something from him. He may be just one step ahead of us, two steps at most. We could catch up with him by simply taking a leap. Why not give it a try?
像韩寒那样，珍惜你的痛感，珍惜你喊痛的权利，使韩寒成为潮流，成为时尚。如此，我们的社会才没有那么多丧心病狂的精神病杀手，我们才救得了孩子，救得了我们自己。
Treasure your pains like Han Han does with his. Treasure your rights to cry out of your pains, and see Han Han as a trend and fashion. In this way, we won’t have as many lunatic psychopath killers in the society. Only in this way, we can save the children, and ourselves.
South Weekend
Link: http://www.infzm.com/content/43823
2010年4月11日星期日
A blog article of Han Han
散文一篇
An essay
在昨天，我看到了一条新闻，新闻说我候选了时代周刊的两百个影响全球的人物，中国同时入选的还有敏感词，敏感词和敏感词等人。当时我正在我们村里挖笋（我挖的是自己家的），没怎么注意，后来回去一看手机上有不少的短信，问我对此事的态度，我只回复了新京报和南都的两位朋友，其他媒体写的均为凭着对我性格的猜测下的友好想象。我没有想到大家还比较关心，在这里我就做一个统一的回复。
Yesterday, I say a piece of news saying that I was nominated as one of the 200 [it’s in fact 100]most influential people in the world by Time magazine. [http://www.time.com/time/specials/packages/article/0,28804,1972075_1972078_1972568,00.html]Other Chinese nominees included ‘screened word’, ‘screened word’ and ‘screened word’. I was digging bamboo shoots in our village then (and I digged my own bamboo shoots) and did not pay much attention. When I got back home, I found quite a number of text messages asking for my attitudes toward this matter. I only replied two [journalist] friends from The Beijing News and Southern Metropolis Weekly; any articles published on other media are merely friendly impressions based on their hypothesis about my characters. I did not expect such attentions from the mass public, but I’ll make an integrated response here.
首先，我非常感叹和惋惜，为什么别人有这样的新闻媒体，当时代周刊弄一个人物榜的评选的时候，能够让全世界其他的国家都起波澜。我多么渴望我们中国也能有类似的一个新闻媒体，当他评选人物的时候，在全世界也引起关注。我们不能说这样的一个媒体完全公正，但是它是有完全的公信力的，我多么渴望我们国家也有。可惜我们并没有。不是说我们的媒体人要比其他地方的媒体人差，而是因为一些……原因，这些原因众所周知，点到为止，多说必死，死后鞭尸。
First of all, I’m overwhelmed by exclamations and shames. Why could such a news media like Time magazine exist in other countries that it produces ripples in every other country all over the world when a Top People vote is initiated. I’m dying to see a similar news media in China when it starts a Top People vote, the whole world would pay attention. We cannot say such a media is absolutely impartial, but it has total public credibility. I anxiously hope that we have such a media in China, but unfortunately, we don’t. I doesn’t mean our media people are not as qualified as those in other countries. There are certain reasons, which are known to all. I’m not digging up on it here. Otherwise it’ll bring me tons of trouble.
我经常自问自己，我为这个充满着敏感词的社会做出了什么贡献，可能到最后我只贡献了一个以我的名字命名的敏感词而已。我天天睡到中午，经常浪费钱买数码产品，还挑食，但好在我也未曾给这个社会增加罪孽和负担，至少迄今为止是这样。我没有辽阔的远见，我唯独只想让相关部门善待文艺和新闻，不要给他们过多的审查以及限制，不要用政府的权利和国家名义去封杀或者污蔑任何一个文艺工作者和新闻从业者，这样的话，不用你们花大价钱，这个国家会自动生产出输出到西方世界的文艺作品和新闻媒体，我们的每一个小小的读者听众观众网民市民国民都能同享荣光。我未必有天赋和能力写出好的东西，但是别人有，但你不要阉人有[又]夸人无。
I often ask myself, what have I contributed to this society filled with ‘screened words’? Maybe ultimately just another screened word consisting of my very own name. Every single day, I sleep till noon; I often wasted money on digital products; I am a picky eater. But fortunately I haven’t brought extra sins and burdens to this society; at least it’s the case so far. I don’t have wide-scale insights; I just hope that those authorities concerned could treat literature and art and news with mercy, instead of imposing excessive censorship and restrictions on them, or forcing out or slandering any literature/art worker or media worker in the name of the government authority or the nation. If so, this country would automatically generate literary/art works and news media that would get exported to western world without the expensive nurturing from the government. And as a result, every single reader, listener, audience, netizen, city resident and citizen can share the glory. I may not necessarily be very talented and competent to write brilliant stuff, but other people are. So don’t you emasculate them and boast of their non-existence. [I cannot do the irony here]
电话里记者问我，有一些地方还说你和西方反华势力勾结，我说这个很正常，人家这招用了六十年了，前几十年还有发自内心的，后几十年纯粹是用于泼脏水了。我一个要去西方国家比赛经常因为材料不够齐而差点签证都办不出来的人，还西方势力呢，况且都什么年代了，还勾结不勾结的，这词说出去多难听啊。相信如果有哪位朋友天天监听着我的电话的话，您一定很清楚我究竟是一个怎么样的人，您说呢，电脑前一定会有一位朋友会心一笑的。但我只是奇怪，这些御用笔杆子，怎么几十年都用一个体位，他不烦，对象都烦了。但是，我坚决赞同他们的存在，因为总有正方和反方，总有甲方和乙方，如果我们国家能做到话不投机一拍两散，而不是话不投机把你封杀，那就是我们国家的巨大进步，我们也将为此而努力。
Some journalist said on the phone: some [from government authorities?] say that you are ganging up with western anti-China forces. I replied that it is pretty common. They have used this trick for sixty years. It was authentic during the first several decades; but during the last few decades, it’s purely slandering. I used to fail to get visas because of missing of certain documents when I was planning to attend car racing games in western countries; what’s with the ganging up? Besides, why are we still talking about ganging up with people during this modern age? The phrase is such an eye sore. I believe if there is a friend tapping into my phone calls on a daily base, they must know what kind of people I am, what do you think? There must be a friend smiling with understanding in front of the computer screen. But I’m just curious, those kept writers have been using one body position for decades; even though they are not fed up with it, the objects are. However, I’m totally in favor of their existence, since affirmative/negative sides and Party A/B always exist co-dependently. When under the circumstance of disagreements, if our nation is capable of tolerating them taking separating paths instead of forcing the other side out, then it’s a great step forward. We will be making great efforts on it as well.
后来他又发短信问我，那么换句话说，你这个人的观点和言论符合了西方人的价值观，你觉得是么？
Later on, he texted me again and asked: in other words, your personal opinions and statements are in accordance with western values, do you think so?
我回消息说，难道不符合中国人的价值观么？
I replied: Are they not in accordance with Chinese values?
我相信地球人和外星人也许价值观不一样，但是西方人和东方人，除了生活习惯不一样以外，价值观应该是差不多的，为何一定要争呢。
I believe that earthmen aliens may have different values, but except for life habits, western and oriental people have similar values. Why do we have to alienate us from one another?
最后说回到所谓的影响力，我经常非常的惭愧，我只是一介书生，也许我的文章让人解气，但除此以外又有什么呢，那虚无缥缈的影响力？在中国，影响力往往就是权力，那些翻云覆雨手，那些让你死，让你活，让你不死不活的人，他们才是真正有影响力的人。但是不知道是因为他们怕搜呢还是不经搜，往往在搜索引擎上还搜不到他们。我们只是站在这个舞台上被灯光照着的小人物。但是这个剧场归他们所有，他们可以随时让这个舞台落下帷幕，熄灭灯光，切断电闸，关门放狗，最后狗过天晴，一切都无迹可寻。我只是希望这些人，真正的善待自己的影响力，而我们每一个舞台上的人，甚至能有当年建造这个剧场的人，争取把四面的高墙和灯泡都慢慢拆除，当阳光洒进来的时候，那种光明，将再也没有人能摁灭。
Finally, back to the so called influence issue. I often feel ashamed. I’m just a writer. Maybe what I write is sympathetic to many readers and speaks out their rages, but what else can I do? The visionary ‘influence’ I have? In China, influences are usually realized by power. The real influential people are those almighty hands, those people who have a say on your destiny. But I’m not sure if they are afraid to be searched online or just cannot stand up to be searched online, you cannot get any results on the search engines. We are just nobodies on stage under the spotlights, but the theatre is possessed by those real influential powerful people who get to decide to drop the curtain down, shut the lights, cut the electricity, close the door and unleash the dogs at any time; then things become normal again with no traceable hints on what’s just happened. I just wish that these people would do the right thing with their influences on other people; and every single one on stage and maybe even those who helped build the theatre would be able to gradually tear down the high-standing walls and light bulbs. So when sunshine spreads in, no one can never ever crush out the brightness.
An essay
在昨天，我看到了一条新闻，新闻说我候选了时代周刊的两百个影响全球的人物，中国同时入选的还有敏感词，敏感词和敏感词等人。当时我正在我们村里挖笋（我挖的是自己家的），没怎么注意，后来回去一看手机上有不少的短信，问我对此事的态度，我只回复了新京报和南都的两位朋友，其他媒体写的均为凭着对我性格的猜测下的友好想象。我没有想到大家还比较关心，在这里我就做一个统一的回复。
Yesterday, I say a piece of news saying that I was nominated as one of the 200 [it’s in fact 100]most influential people in the world by Time magazine. [http://www.time.com/time/specials/packages/article/0,28804,1972075_1972078_1972568,00.html]Other Chinese nominees included ‘screened word’, ‘screened word’ and ‘screened word’. I was digging bamboo shoots in our village then (and I digged my own bamboo shoots) and did not pay much attention. When I got back home, I found quite a number of text messages asking for my attitudes toward this matter. I only replied two [journalist] friends from The Beijing News and Southern Metropolis Weekly; any articles published on other media are merely friendly impressions based on their hypothesis about my characters. I did not expect such attentions from the mass public, but I’ll make an integrated response here.
首先，我非常感叹和惋惜，为什么别人有这样的新闻媒体，当时代周刊弄一个人物榜的评选的时候，能够让全世界其他的国家都起波澜。我多么渴望我们中国也能有类似的一个新闻媒体，当他评选人物的时候，在全世界也引起关注。我们不能说这样的一个媒体完全公正，但是它是有完全的公信力的，我多么渴望我们国家也有。可惜我们并没有。不是说我们的媒体人要比其他地方的媒体人差，而是因为一些……原因，这些原因众所周知，点到为止，多说必死，死后鞭尸。
First of all, I’m overwhelmed by exclamations and shames. Why could such a news media like Time magazine exist in other countries that it produces ripples in every other country all over the world when a Top People vote is initiated. I’m dying to see a similar news media in China when it starts a Top People vote, the whole world would pay attention. We cannot say such a media is absolutely impartial, but it has total public credibility. I anxiously hope that we have such a media in China, but unfortunately, we don’t. I doesn’t mean our media people are not as qualified as those in other countries. There are certain reasons, which are known to all. I’m not digging up on it here. Otherwise it’ll bring me tons of trouble.
我经常自问自己，我为这个充满着敏感词的社会做出了什么贡献，可能到最后我只贡献了一个以我的名字命名的敏感词而已。我天天睡到中午，经常浪费钱买数码产品，还挑食，但好在我也未曾给这个社会增加罪孽和负担，至少迄今为止是这样。我没有辽阔的远见，我唯独只想让相关部门善待文艺和新闻，不要给他们过多的审查以及限制，不要用政府的权利和国家名义去封杀或者污蔑任何一个文艺工作者和新闻从业者，这样的话，不用你们花大价钱，这个国家会自动生产出输出到西方世界的文艺作品和新闻媒体，我们的每一个小小的读者听众观众网民市民国民都能同享荣光。我未必有天赋和能力写出好的东西，但是别人有，但你不要阉人有[又]夸人无。
I often ask myself, what have I contributed to this society filled with ‘screened words’? Maybe ultimately just another screened word consisting of my very own name. Every single day, I sleep till noon; I often wasted money on digital products; I am a picky eater. But fortunately I haven’t brought extra sins and burdens to this society; at least it’s the case so far. I don’t have wide-scale insights; I just hope that those authorities concerned could treat literature and art and news with mercy, instead of imposing excessive censorship and restrictions on them, or forcing out or slandering any literature/art worker or media worker in the name of the government authority or the nation. If so, this country would automatically generate literary/art works and news media that would get exported to western world without the expensive nurturing from the government. And as a result, every single reader, listener, audience, netizen, city resident and citizen can share the glory. I may not necessarily be very talented and competent to write brilliant stuff, but other people are. So don’t you emasculate them and boast of their non-existence. [I cannot do the irony here]
电话里记者问我，有一些地方还说你和西方反华势力勾结，我说这个很正常，人家这招用了六十年了，前几十年还有发自内心的，后几十年纯粹是用于泼脏水了。我一个要去西方国家比赛经常因为材料不够齐而差点签证都办不出来的人，还西方势力呢，况且都什么年代了，还勾结不勾结的，这词说出去多难听啊。相信如果有哪位朋友天天监听着我的电话的话，您一定很清楚我究竟是一个怎么样的人，您说呢，电脑前一定会有一位朋友会心一笑的。但我只是奇怪，这些御用笔杆子，怎么几十年都用一个体位，他不烦，对象都烦了。但是，我坚决赞同他们的存在，因为总有正方和反方，总有甲方和乙方，如果我们国家能做到话不投机一拍两散，而不是话不投机把你封杀，那就是我们国家的巨大进步，我们也将为此而努力。
Some journalist said on the phone: some [from government authorities?] say that you are ganging up with western anti-China forces. I replied that it is pretty common. They have used this trick for sixty years. It was authentic during the first several decades; but during the last few decades, it’s purely slandering. I used to fail to get visas because of missing of certain documents when I was planning to attend car racing games in western countries; what’s with the ganging up? Besides, why are we still talking about ganging up with people during this modern age? The phrase is such an eye sore. I believe if there is a friend tapping into my phone calls on a daily base, they must know what kind of people I am, what do you think? There must be a friend smiling with understanding in front of the computer screen. But I’m just curious, those kept writers have been using one body position for decades; even though they are not fed up with it, the objects are. However, I’m totally in favor of their existence, since affirmative/negative sides and Party A/B always exist co-dependently. When under the circumstance of disagreements, if our nation is capable of tolerating them taking separating paths instead of forcing the other side out, then it’s a great step forward. We will be making great efforts on it as well.
后来他又发短信问我，那么换句话说，你这个人的观点和言论符合了西方人的价值观，你觉得是么？
Later on, he texted me again and asked: in other words, your personal opinions and statements are in accordance with western values, do you think so?
我回消息说，难道不符合中国人的价值观么？
I replied: Are they not in accordance with Chinese values?
我相信地球人和外星人也许价值观不一样，但是西方人和东方人，除了生活习惯不一样以外，价值观应该是差不多的，为何一定要争呢。
I believe that earthmen aliens may have different values, but except for life habits, western and oriental people have similar values. Why do we have to alienate us from one another?
最后说回到所谓的影响力，我经常非常的惭愧，我只是一介书生，也许我的文章让人解气，但除此以外又有什么呢，那虚无缥缈的影响力？在中国，影响力往往就是权力，那些翻云覆雨手，那些让你死，让你活，让你不死不活的人，他们才是真正有影响力的人。但是不知道是因为他们怕搜呢还是不经搜，往往在搜索引擎上还搜不到他们。我们只是站在这个舞台上被灯光照着的小人物。但是这个剧场归他们所有，他们可以随时让这个舞台落下帷幕，熄灭灯光，切断电闸，关门放狗，最后狗过天晴，一切都无迹可寻。我只是希望这些人，真正的善待自己的影响力，而我们每一个舞台上的人，甚至能有当年建造这个剧场的人，争取把四面的高墙和灯泡都慢慢拆除，当阳光洒进来的时候，那种光明，将再也没有人能摁灭。
Finally, back to the so called influence issue. I often feel ashamed. I’m just a writer. Maybe what I write is sympathetic to many readers and speaks out their rages, but what else can I do? The visionary ‘influence’ I have? In China, influences are usually realized by power. The real influential people are those almighty hands, those people who have a say on your destiny. But I’m not sure if they are afraid to be searched online or just cannot stand up to be searched online, you cannot get any results on the search engines. We are just nobodies on stage under the spotlights, but the theatre is possessed by those real influential powerful people who get to decide to drop the curtain down, shut the lights, cut the electricity, close the door and unleash the dogs at any time; then things become normal again with no traceable hints on what’s just happened. I just wish that these people would do the right thing with their influences on other people; and every single one on stage and maybe even those who helped build the theatre would be able to gradually tear down the high-standing walls and light bulbs. So when sunshine spreads in, no one can never ever crush out the brightness.
2010年2月16日星期二
Army men's Marriage-解放军的婚事 Part 1
Army Men’s Marriage
By Luo Erwen
“Editor: ‘On festive occasions more than ever one thinks of their dearest ones far away’. But nowadays in China, the ‘dearest ones’ sometimes refers to the ones you meet in blind dates. The first day of the lunar year 2010 happens to be St. Valentine’s Day. Before the new year arrives, South Weekend takes another glance at the Chinese Liberation Army. However, this time the focus is armymen’s marriage instead of posture or reformation. During this time of family reunion, let’s take a look at the ‘marriage codes’ behind their indomitable looks.”
Marriage could be very ‘Liberation Army-y’
“There is a well-accepted idea in the Army that female teachers and military officers make a perfect match, possibly because in military families, spouses are usually separated at the early stage and teachers can take advantage of their winter and summer vacations to visit the husband.”
As the Tiger year is approaching, one night, a Captain in the Liberation Army Li Yuxuan got back to the dorm at 10:00 p.m. after working overtime. He received a phone call from his parents right after he’d washed up. After a few words, there came the ‘usual question’. His father said: ‘We’ve been waited too long for you to get married.’
30-year-old Li Yuxuan has had a relationship when he was in a military university. However, after he was assigned to the grass-root unit, he was promoted to platoon commander, then company commander; then he was relocated to military institution as a colonel of military affairs and has been always busy since then. Several blind dates ended up in vain. As the only child in the family, his parents are worried about his marriage.
Above-the-average-age-of-marriage Li Yuxuan’s being single is not a special case in the Army. Besides frequent relocation from work, and similar reasons as civil citizens staying unhitched, the specific and distinctive nature of the Army also adds up to the difficulty for them to find a life partner.
First of all, armymen have limited time and circle to look for romance. The army camp is majorly composed of males, and often function in the form of group activities, as a result, they have few opportunities to have contact with women. Except for the fact that military officers and a very few number of sergeants are allowed to look for partners where the troops are based, the majority of the army can only maintain a relationship in the place of their origin. Strict regulations in the army (for example, they should always be ready to get back whenever visiting family or on vacation) is compressing their time for relationships to the fullest extent. According to a report from ‘Liberation Army Daily’ last year, no insurances of vacation has cause their difficulty in looking for a partner in marriage.
Moreover, two sides in the marriage or relationship stay separated for long times. They depend on letters and phone calls to maintain communication; after getting married, they are mostly faced with having to stay separated right away. The separation usually lasts for three to five years, during which they can only have one or two short reunions every year. Not after the military officers are promoted to secondary battalion grade, their spouses cannot accompany them in the Army. Even after the spouses can accompany then in the Army, they are still faced with possible separation due to relocation or task execution.
The most direct consequence is that the officer’s wife has to shoulder more family responsibilities, which is illustrated from the term we call them—family dependents (Jia Shu). As a result, those wives who deal with all the problems on their own like Han Suyun have become the typical examples of supporting military undertaking and have gained great publicity.
These facts may have made it prohibitive for some females to start a relationship with army men. However, favorable public image, steady income and relatively high political and social status have got them bonus marks. Surveys show that those military officers who stay stably in a certain unit without relocation tend to get married two to four years after graduation.
Besides free love, blind dates have become the major path for army men’s marriage. Comrades-in-arms, superior officers and their family members are likely to become their match-makers. With the concern of the match-makers, the Spring Festival holiday has become a great opportunity for single ‘elder’ army men to rush to the ‘battle of love’.
Another path is Military-Civilian gathering. It is usually organized jointly by military sections together with mass organizations like local Women’s Association and or so. It’s has made a number of matches.
However, for those who are stationed on plateau, on the mountains or sea islands and other places with extreme conditions, their love patterns are hard to generalize. What we can be sure is that their love story is destined to suffer from more sorrows and bitterness, which is reflected in the skit “Military Spouses to the Island” on the Spring Festival Gala.
Generally speaking, the spouses of military officers are well-cultivated, especially in big and medium cities, spouses of male officers are majorly made up with white collars, besides female military officers. There is a well-accepted idea in the Army that female teachers and military officers make a perfect match, possibly because in military families, spouses are usually separated at the early stage and teachers can take advantage of their winter and summer vacations to visit the husband.
Female officers are a rare species in the army, so they are not worried about getting married. Their socializing circle tends to be limited in the army as well; but there are also some female officers who have made it clear that they don’t want to find a partner in the military.
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http://www.infzm.com/content/41452
The rest three parts are worse and too long, so I didn't finish the whole article.
For myself, men in uniforms is always a temptation, haa~
By Luo Erwen
“Editor: ‘On festive occasions more than ever one thinks of their dearest ones far away’. But nowadays in China, the ‘dearest ones’ sometimes refers to the ones you meet in blind dates. The first day of the lunar year 2010 happens to be St. Valentine’s Day. Before the new year arrives, South Weekend takes another glance at the Chinese Liberation Army. However, this time the focus is armymen’s marriage instead of posture or reformation. During this time of family reunion, let’s take a look at the ‘marriage codes’ behind their indomitable looks.”
Marriage could be very ‘Liberation Army-y’
“There is a well-accepted idea in the Army that female teachers and military officers make a perfect match, possibly because in military families, spouses are usually separated at the early stage and teachers can take advantage of their winter and summer vacations to visit the husband.”
As the Tiger year is approaching, one night, a Captain in the Liberation Army Li Yuxuan got back to the dorm at 10:00 p.m. after working overtime. He received a phone call from his parents right after he’d washed up. After a few words, there came the ‘usual question’. His father said: ‘We’ve been waited too long for you to get married.’
30-year-old Li Yuxuan has had a relationship when he was in a military university. However, after he was assigned to the grass-root unit, he was promoted to platoon commander, then company commander; then he was relocated to military institution as a colonel of military affairs and has been always busy since then. Several blind dates ended up in vain. As the only child in the family, his parents are worried about his marriage.
Above-the-average-age-of-marriage Li Yuxuan’s being single is not a special case in the Army. Besides frequent relocation from work, and similar reasons as civil citizens staying unhitched, the specific and distinctive nature of the Army also adds up to the difficulty for them to find a life partner.
First of all, armymen have limited time and circle to look for romance. The army camp is majorly composed of males, and often function in the form of group activities, as a result, they have few opportunities to have contact with women. Except for the fact that military officers and a very few number of sergeants are allowed to look for partners where the troops are based, the majority of the army can only maintain a relationship in the place of their origin. Strict regulations in the army (for example, they should always be ready to get back whenever visiting family or on vacation) is compressing their time for relationships to the fullest extent. According to a report from ‘Liberation Army Daily’ last year, no insurances of vacation has cause their difficulty in looking for a partner in marriage.
Moreover, two sides in the marriage or relationship stay separated for long times. They depend on letters and phone calls to maintain communication; after getting married, they are mostly faced with having to stay separated right away. The separation usually lasts for three to five years, during which they can only have one or two short reunions every year. Not after the military officers are promoted to secondary battalion grade, their spouses cannot accompany them in the Army. Even after the spouses can accompany then in the Army, they are still faced with possible separation due to relocation or task execution.
The most direct consequence is that the officer’s wife has to shoulder more family responsibilities, which is illustrated from the term we call them—family dependents (Jia Shu). As a result, those wives who deal with all the problems on their own like Han Suyun have become the typical examples of supporting military undertaking and have gained great publicity.
These facts may have made it prohibitive for some females to start a relationship with army men. However, favorable public image, steady income and relatively high political and social status have got them bonus marks. Surveys show that those military officers who stay stably in a certain unit without relocation tend to get married two to four years after graduation.
Besides free love, blind dates have become the major path for army men’s marriage. Comrades-in-arms, superior officers and their family members are likely to become their match-makers. With the concern of the match-makers, the Spring Festival holiday has become a great opportunity for single ‘elder’ army men to rush to the ‘battle of love’.
Another path is Military-Civilian gathering. It is usually organized jointly by military sections together with mass organizations like local Women’s Association and or so. It’s has made a number of matches.
However, for those who are stationed on plateau, on the mountains or sea islands and other places with extreme conditions, their love patterns are hard to generalize. What we can be sure is that their love story is destined to suffer from more sorrows and bitterness, which is reflected in the skit “Military Spouses to the Island” on the Spring Festival Gala.
Generally speaking, the spouses of military officers are well-cultivated, especially in big and medium cities, spouses of male officers are majorly made up with white collars, besides female military officers. There is a well-accepted idea in the Army that female teachers and military officers make a perfect match, possibly because in military families, spouses are usually separated at the early stage and teachers can take advantage of their winter and summer vacations to visit the husband.
Female officers are a rare species in the army, so they are not worried about getting married. Their socializing circle tends to be limited in the army as well; but there are also some female officers who have made it clear that they don’t want to find a partner in the military.
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http://www.infzm.com/content/41452
The rest three parts are worse and too long, so I didn't finish the whole article.
For myself, men in uniforms is always a temptation, haa~
2010年2月10日星期三
GLOW 《光》
Rene Liu has always seemed to be 'the girl next door'. She is not the prettiest one, and doesn't have the most beautiful voice, but she is always amiable and gracious. Even though the themes of some of her songs are very sad and kind of melancholy and touches the softest spot in your heart, what you (probably just me) feel is actually just 'C'est la vie'.
It was snowing last night, finally after several days of cloudiness and rains, one thing I hate in here. The snow couldn't compare with the heavy snow in Beijing, but this morning it is so BRIGHT outside! yay~
光 GLOW
演唱：劉若英 Rene
想問你是不是還記得我名字 I want to ask if you still remember my name
當人海漲潮又退潮幾次 after the oceans of people have risen and fallen time after time
那些年那些事那一段 All those years, those things, and the time
瘋狂熱烈浪漫日子 of insanely passionate and romantic days
啊恍如隔世 seem to be in snother life
你來過一下子我想念一輩子 You came here once, yet I am gonna be missing you for a lifetime
這樣不理智是怎麼回事 What is with the irrationality?
才快樂一陣子爲什麽 We’ve had some happy time together, yet why
我卻堅持那一定是 am I so convinced that it must be
我最難忘的事 the most unforgettable moment
越過高山和海洋 Having gone over mountains and oceans
喜悅和悲傷 joys and sorrows
不是不孤單 It’s not that I’m no longer lonely
幸好曾有你溫暖的心房 But fortunately, my heart that was once affected by your warmth
還亮著你留下的光 still shines with your glow
你閃耀一下子我暈眩一輩子 You glittered once, yet I’m made giddy for a lifetime
真像個傻子真不好意思 I seem to be an idiot and am embarrassed
可是我在當時 However, back then
真以為你擁抱我的方式 I believed the way you embraced me
是承諾的暗示 is the implication of a promise
經過人來和人往 Having been witnessing people come and go,
期盼和失望 going through expectations and frustrations
我依然還孤單 I am now still alone
幸好曾為你流淚的眼眶 But fortunately, my eyes that once cried for you,
還亮著愛來過的光 are still shining with the glow of love
這些年這些事一下子一輩子 All these years, all the things; a short while, a lifetime
你都度過了怎樣的日子 How has your life been going?
請答應一件事 Please promise me one thing
如果說我能再見你一次 If I am to see you for another time
請讓我看到的還是 Please still let me see
你那燦爛的樣子 your glowing looks
Back in college, when I had the crush on that guy, I did, for a short period of time, think it could last forever and I could live on it. That's silly.
It was snowing last night, finally after several days of cloudiness and rains, one thing I hate in here. The snow couldn't compare with the heavy snow in Beijing, but this morning it is so BRIGHT outside! yay~
光 GLOW
演唱：劉若英 Rene
想問你是不是還記得我名字 I want to ask if you still remember my name
當人海漲潮又退潮幾次 after the oceans of people have risen and fallen time after time
那些年那些事那一段 All those years, those things, and the time
瘋狂熱烈浪漫日子 of insanely passionate and romantic days
啊恍如隔世 seem to be in snother life
你來過一下子我想念一輩子 You came here once, yet I am gonna be missing you for a lifetime
這樣不理智是怎麼回事 What is with the irrationality?
才快樂一陣子爲什麽 We’ve had some happy time together, yet why
我卻堅持那一定是 am I so convinced that it must be
我最難忘的事 the most unforgettable moment
越過高山和海洋 Having gone over mountains and oceans
喜悅和悲傷 joys and sorrows
不是不孤單 It’s not that I’m no longer lonely
幸好曾有你溫暖的心房 But fortunately, my heart that was once affected by your warmth
還亮著你留下的光 still shines with your glow
你閃耀一下子我暈眩一輩子 You glittered once, yet I’m made giddy for a lifetime
真像個傻子真不好意思 I seem to be an idiot and am embarrassed
可是我在當時 However, back then
真以為你擁抱我的方式 I believed the way you embraced me
是承諾的暗示 is the implication of a promise
經過人來和人往 Having been witnessing people come and go,
期盼和失望 going through expectations and frustrations
我依然還孤單 I am now still alone
幸好曾為你流淚的眼眶 But fortunately, my eyes that once cried for you,
還亮著愛來過的光 are still shining with the glow of love
這些年這些事一下子一輩子 All these years, all the things; a short while, a lifetime
你都度過了怎樣的日子 How has your life been going?
請答應一件事 Please promise me one thing
如果說我能再見你一次 If I am to see you for another time
請讓我看到的還是 Please still let me see
你那燦爛的樣子 your glowing looks
Back in college, when I had the crush on that guy, I did, for a short period of time, think it could last forever and I could live on it. That's silly.
2010年2月8日星期一
That's Rich, China
That's rich, China 中國很有錢
Feb 7, 2010 10:36 AM | By Michael Sheridan 作者：邁克爾-謝麗丹
The world's priciest brands have a golden future in the east, writes Michael Sheridan. For one Chinese businesswoman, the trophy was a pure-bred Tibetan mastiff bought for £36000 and escorted to her home in the city of Xi'an by a convoy of 30 Mercedes-Benz limousines.
世界最奢侈的品牌在東方前途無量，邁克爾-謝麗丹寫道。一個中國女商人的血拼戰利品是一隻花費3.6萬英鎊購買的純種藏獒，並由30量奔馳豪車車隊護送回到西安的家中。
While for men, mistresses and concubines are the key element of luxury spending, according to a new report from economists at HSBC that predicts a golden future for the world's priciest brands in China.
滙豐銀行經濟研究人員的一項最新報告預測，中國將成為世界奢侈品消費的未來，而對於男人來說，情婦和二奶才是奢侈品消費的關鍵因素。
British-made Vertu phones have become the badge of the seriously well-off in Guangzhou, where import duty can push their price above £70000. The southern metropolis is also home to a Louis Vuitton shop that has a waiting list of VIPs eager to pay more than £100000 for a Birkin handbag - twice the price on eBay.
在廣州，英國出品的奢華手機Vertu已成為有錢人的標識。加上，進口關稅，一部Vertu手機的售價可高達7萬英鎊。中國南方的這座大都市也是奢侈品牌LV的福地。當地一家LV零售店有一個長長的等候名單，名單上的VIP顧客都急等著購買一款售價超過10萬英鎊的佰金包，而這個價格是eBay上售價的兩倍。
The Yangcheng Evening News reports that a Piaget exhibition sold out of timepieces costing around £80000 and also sold one model for more than £900000. And the hottest cultural show in Beijing last season was Cartier's display of 350 precious objects titled King of Jewellers, Jeweller to Kings - in the Forbidden City, no less.
據《羊城晚報》報導，一個伯爵表的展會上價值約8萬英鎊的鐘錶全部售罄，還售出了一件售價90萬英鎊以上的單品。在北京，上一季最熱的文化展是在奢侈珠寶製造商卡地亞珠寶在故宮舉行的主題為“珠寶商之王與王室珠寶商”的珠寶展。展會上展出了至少350件珠寶精品。
But nothing is forbidden when it comes to a tiny minority of super-rich flaunting their wealth. In a country that endured decades of grey austerity, luxury goods have become not merely the accessories of success but its defining feature. State television reported recently that affluent Chinese tourists were the number one spenders in Paris, ahead of Russians and Americans.
但是，說到愛曬財富的一小群巨富，那就真是“百無禁忌”了。在這個堅持了數十年緊縮的國家（what's grey austetity?)，奢侈品已不僅僅是成功的附屬品，而是成功的必備特徵。國家電視臺最近報導，富足的中國遊客已超過俄羅斯和美國遊客，成為巴黎最大的消費群體。
There are daunting questions over the direction of the economy, including trade wars, bank credit, asset bubbles and inequality. But the fruits of China's long boom are being enjoyed as never before by the privileged class that emerged from the "reform" decade of the '90s. It is an affirmation of prosperity that has led analysts at HSBC to conclude that China may account for more than a third of the global growth in luxury goods this year.
中國經濟發展方向面臨著嚴峻的問題，包括貿易戰、銀行信貸、資產泡沫和不平等（inequality of what?）。然而，中國的特權階層正以一種前所未有的方式享用著中國長期繁榮的成果；而這一特權階層集中出現於上世紀90年代改革的十年。正是這種對繁榮的斷言使滙豐銀行的分析師得出結論，今年中國可能會占全球奢侈品增長的三分之一以上。
Those Louis Vuitton handbags could be taken as a proxy for the sector, they say, citing an analysis of the company's sales by nationality which shows Chinese customers could represent a "staggering" 30% of its worldwide sales in just five years' time.
LV公司的按顧客國籍分類的銷售記錄顯示，僅在過去的五年中，中國消費者就為他們的全球銷售額貢獻了令人吃驚的30%。就此，滙豐銀行的分析師說，那些LV的手袋可以看成是奢侈品產業的代表。
Apart from the handful of politically connected tycoons whose propensity to spend has emptied the showrooms of Rolls-Royces, there are an estimated 825000 people in China worth more than £1-million. Their average age is 43, according to the Hurun Report, a list of the wealthy.
除了那一小批愛購奢侈品愛到能把勞斯萊斯展示廳一掃而空、有政治關聯的大企業家以外，胡潤百富榜顯示，中國身價超過百萬英鎊的富豪人數約82.5萬人，平均年齡43歲。
A recent survey of Chinese youth found that a typical city teenager's bag contains between three and seven designer pieces, such as a Gucci wallet or a Louis Vuitton key-chain holder. Yet "brand penetration" remains limited while a host of unique cultural and social factors make the Chinese avid consumers of luxury.
近期的一項針對中國青年人的調查發現，一個典型城市青少年的包裡有三至七件設計師作品，比如古奇錢包或者LV鑰匙扣。然而，儘管大量的中國獨有的文化和社會因素使中國人成為熱情的奢侈品消費者，但品牌滲透在中國仍受到限制。
The survey defines China as "a local luxury goods market that is probably the only male-driven one on the planet". It adds: "Also a reality is the fact that having mistresses or concubines is institutionalised, thus feeding luxury consumption."
這項調查將中國稱為“可能是世界上唯一一個由男性驅動的奢侈品市場”，該調查還指出，擁有情人和二奶成為普遍現象，從而推動了奢侈品消費。
But among the hundreds of millions left behind by the boom, class hatred is reawakening the slogans of Maoism. "Even foreigners are open-mouthed at the luxurious consumption of our rich men," complained a blogger called Ma Zhe, "but the masses despise them." - ©The Sunday Times, London
然而，在沒跟上繁榮的腳步的數億人之中，階級仇恨正再度喚醒毛澤東思想的口號。一位名叫馬哲（音，Ma Zhe）的博主寫道：儘管外國人對這些富人的奢華消費目瞪口呆，但老百姓鄙視他們。
來源：《星期日泰晤士報》
原文鏈接：
http://www.timeslive.co.za/lifestyle/fashion/article290702.ece
Feb 7, 2010 10:36 AM | By Michael Sheridan 作者：邁克爾-謝麗丹
The world's priciest brands have a golden future in the east, writes Michael Sheridan. For one Chinese businesswoman, the trophy was a pure-bred Tibetan mastiff bought for £36000 and escorted to her home in the city of Xi'an by a convoy of 30 Mercedes-Benz limousines.
世界最奢侈的品牌在東方前途無量，邁克爾-謝麗丹寫道。一個中國女商人的血拼戰利品是一隻花費3.6萬英鎊購買的純種藏獒，並由30量奔馳豪車車隊護送回到西安的家中。
While for men, mistresses and concubines are the key element of luxury spending, according to a new report from economists at HSBC that predicts a golden future for the world's priciest brands in China.
滙豐銀行經濟研究人員的一項最新報告預測，中國將成為世界奢侈品消費的未來，而對於男人來說，情婦和二奶才是奢侈品消費的關鍵因素。
British-made Vertu phones have become the badge of the seriously well-off in Guangzhou, where import duty can push their price above £70000. The southern metropolis is also home to a Louis Vuitton shop that has a waiting list of VIPs eager to pay more than £100000 for a Birkin handbag - twice the price on eBay.
在廣州，英國出品的奢華手機Vertu已成為有錢人的標識。加上，進口關稅，一部Vertu手機的售價可高達7萬英鎊。中國南方的這座大都市也是奢侈品牌LV的福地。當地一家LV零售店有一個長長的等候名單，名單上的VIP顧客都急等著購買一款售價超過10萬英鎊的佰金包，而這個價格是eBay上售價的兩倍。
The Yangcheng Evening News reports that a Piaget exhibition sold out of timepieces costing around £80000 and also sold one model for more than £900000. And the hottest cultural show in Beijing last season was Cartier's display of 350 precious objects titled King of Jewellers, Jeweller to Kings - in the Forbidden City, no less.
據《羊城晚報》報導，一個伯爵表的展會上價值約8萬英鎊的鐘錶全部售罄，還售出了一件售價90萬英鎊以上的單品。在北京，上一季最熱的文化展是在奢侈珠寶製造商卡地亞珠寶在故宮舉行的主題為“珠寶商之王與王室珠寶商”的珠寶展。展會上展出了至少350件珠寶精品。
But nothing is forbidden when it comes to a tiny minority of super-rich flaunting their wealth. In a country that endured decades of grey austerity, luxury goods have become not merely the accessories of success but its defining feature. State television reported recently that affluent Chinese tourists were the number one spenders in Paris, ahead of Russians and Americans.
但是，說到愛曬財富的一小群巨富，那就真是“百無禁忌”了。在這個堅持了數十年緊縮的國家（what's grey austetity?)，奢侈品已不僅僅是成功的附屬品，而是成功的必備特徵。國家電視臺最近報導，富足的中國遊客已超過俄羅斯和美國遊客，成為巴黎最大的消費群體。
There are daunting questions over the direction of the economy, including trade wars, bank credit, asset bubbles and inequality. But the fruits of China's long boom are being enjoyed as never before by the privileged class that emerged from the "reform" decade of the '90s. It is an affirmation of prosperity that has led analysts at HSBC to conclude that China may account for more than a third of the global growth in luxury goods this year.
中國經濟發展方向面臨著嚴峻的問題，包括貿易戰、銀行信貸、資產泡沫和不平等（inequality of what?）。然而，中國的特權階層正以一種前所未有的方式享用著中國長期繁榮的成果；而這一特權階層集中出現於上世紀90年代改革的十年。正是這種對繁榮的斷言使滙豐銀行的分析師得出結論，今年中國可能會占全球奢侈品增長的三分之一以上。
Those Louis Vuitton handbags could be taken as a proxy for the sector, they say, citing an analysis of the company's sales by nationality which shows Chinese customers could represent a "staggering" 30% of its worldwide sales in just five years' time.
LV公司的按顧客國籍分類的銷售記錄顯示，僅在過去的五年中，中國消費者就為他們的全球銷售額貢獻了令人吃驚的30%。就此，滙豐銀行的分析師說，那些LV的手袋可以看成是奢侈品產業的代表。
Apart from the handful of politically connected tycoons whose propensity to spend has emptied the showrooms of Rolls-Royces, there are an estimated 825000 people in China worth more than £1-million. Their average age is 43, according to the Hurun Report, a list of the wealthy.
除了那一小批愛購奢侈品愛到能把勞斯萊斯展示廳一掃而空、有政治關聯的大企業家以外，胡潤百富榜顯示，中國身價超過百萬英鎊的富豪人數約82.5萬人，平均年齡43歲。
A recent survey of Chinese youth found that a typical city teenager's bag contains between three and seven designer pieces, such as a Gucci wallet or a Louis Vuitton key-chain holder. Yet "brand penetration" remains limited while a host of unique cultural and social factors make the Chinese avid consumers of luxury.
近期的一項針對中國青年人的調查發現，一個典型城市青少年的包裡有三至七件設計師作品，比如古奇錢包或者LV鑰匙扣。然而，儘管大量的中國獨有的文化和社會因素使中國人成為熱情的奢侈品消費者，但品牌滲透在中國仍受到限制。
The survey defines China as "a local luxury goods market that is probably the only male-driven one on the planet". It adds: "Also a reality is the fact that having mistresses or concubines is institutionalised, thus feeding luxury consumption."
這項調查將中國稱為“可能是世界上唯一一個由男性驅動的奢侈品市場”，該調查還指出，擁有情人和二奶成為普遍現象，從而推動了奢侈品消費。
But among the hundreds of millions left behind by the boom, class hatred is reawakening the slogans of Maoism. "Even foreigners are open-mouthed at the luxurious consumption of our rich men," complained a blogger called Ma Zhe, "but the masses despise them." - ©The Sunday Times, London
然而，在沒跟上繁榮的腳步的數億人之中，階級仇恨正再度喚醒毛澤東思想的口號。一位名叫馬哲（音，Ma Zhe）的博主寫道：儘管外國人對這些富人的奢華消費目瞪口呆，但老百姓鄙視他們。
來源：《星期日泰晤士報》
原文鏈接：
http://www.timeslive.co.za/lifestyle/fashion/article290702.ece
2010年2月4日星期四
YOU ARE BEAUTIFUL-你太美麗
One of my favorite English songs. There are several words i'm not sure how to transfer into Chinese, like brilliant, think up etc; and in a few places, I did not translate it exactly based on the original structure. I think it looks better this way.
The difference between the real version and clean version (fucking high/flying high) is very interesting. It reminds me of one of Zhang Zhenyue's songs-路口/End of the Alley/Road crossing?. There is a sentence 我不想走，去你妈的路口/I don't want to leave, the damn crossing, but when it's imported into mainland China, it's altered into 我不想走，去你家的路口/I don't want to leave, on the road crossing that leads to your house.
SARFT has done a great job in censorship (wait, this falls in their responsibilities right?). The original version is just more interesting and powerful.
There is a song by Chen Shanni named 《你太好看》, i might try to translate it later. There are not much going on during the vacation while staying at home. I've suddenly realized that I don't really have a life here; and I don't really have a life in Beijing; so i pretty much anticipate what's gonna happen for the future.
YOU ARE BEAUTIFUL 你太美麗
My life is brilliant. 我的生活萬般精彩
My love is pure. 我的愛情純潔堅定
I saw an angel. 我看見一個天使
Of that I'm sure. 這一點我深信不疑这
She smiled at me on the subway. 地鐵上她向我微笑
She was with another man. 他身邊有男人相伴
But I won't lose no sleep on that, 但我不會為此深夜無眠
'Cause I've got a plan. 因為我自有打算
You're beautiful. You're beautiful. 你太美麗，你太美麗
You're beautiful, it's true. 美麗的你，無與倫比美
I saw your face in a crowded place, 我在擁擠的人群中看到你的臉龐
And I don't know what to do, 我不知該何去何從
'Cause I'll never be with you. 因為我永遠無法與你相守
Yeah, she caught my eye, 她光彩奪目
As we walked on by. 但擋不住我們擦肩而過
She could see from my face that I was, 從我的臉上，她看得出
Fucking high,(Real version) 我他媽興奮得飄飄然^o^（原版本）
Flying high,(clean version) 我飄然興奮（淨化版）
And I don't think that I'll see her again, 我想我再也見不到她
But we shared a moment that will last 但我們共有的這一刻邂逅
till the end. 會永久定格
You're beautiful. You're beautiful. 你太美麗，你太美麗
You're beautiful, it's true. 美麗的你，無與倫比
I saw your face in a crowded place, 我在擁擠的人群中發現你的面龐
And I don't know what to do, 但我不知何去何從
'Cause I'll never be with you. 因為我永遠無法與你相守
You're beautiful. You're beautiful. 你太美麗，你太美麗
You're beautiful, it's true. 你的美麗，無與倫比
There must be an angel with a smile on her face, 一定有一個面帶微笑的天使
When she thought up that I should be with you. 因為她相信我才是你的白馬王子
But it's time to face the truth, 但是我該面對現實
I will never be with you. 我永遠無法與你相守
The difference between the real version and clean version (fucking high/flying high) is very interesting. It reminds me of one of Zhang Zhenyue's songs-路口/End of the Alley/Road crossing?. There is a sentence 我不想走，去你妈的路口/I don't want to leave, the damn crossing, but when it's imported into mainland China, it's altered into 我不想走，去你家的路口/I don't want to leave, on the road crossing that leads to your house.
SARFT has done a great job in censorship (wait, this falls in their responsibilities right?). The original version is just more interesting and powerful.
There is a song by Chen Shanni named 《你太好看》, i might try to translate it later. There are not much going on during the vacation while staying at home. I've suddenly realized that I don't really have a life here; and I don't really have a life in Beijing; so i pretty much anticipate what's gonna happen for the future.
YOU ARE BEAUTIFUL 你太美麗
My life is brilliant. 我的生活萬般精彩
My love is pure. 我的愛情純潔堅定
I saw an angel. 我看見一個天使
Of that I'm sure. 這一點我深信不疑这
She smiled at me on the subway. 地鐵上她向我微笑
She was with another man. 他身邊有男人相伴
But I won't lose no sleep on that, 但我不會為此深夜無眠
'Cause I've got a plan. 因為我自有打算
You're beautiful. You're beautiful. 你太美麗，你太美麗
You're beautiful, it's true. 美麗的你，無與倫比美
I saw your face in a crowded place, 我在擁擠的人群中看到你的臉龐
And I don't know what to do, 我不知該何去何從
'Cause I'll never be with you. 因為我永遠無法與你相守
Yeah, she caught my eye, 她光彩奪目
As we walked on by. 但擋不住我們擦肩而過
She could see from my face that I was, 從我的臉上，她看得出
Fucking high,(Real version) 我他媽興奮得飄飄然^o^（原版本）
Flying high,(clean version) 我飄然興奮（淨化版）
And I don't think that I'll see her again, 我想我再也見不到她
But we shared a moment that will last 但我們共有的這一刻邂逅
till the end. 會永久定格
You're beautiful. You're beautiful. 你太美麗，你太美麗
You're beautiful, it's true. 美麗的你，無與倫比
I saw your face in a crowded place, 我在擁擠的人群中發現你的面龐
And I don't know what to do, 但我不知何去何從
'Cause I'll never be with you. 因為我永遠無法與你相守
You're beautiful. You're beautiful. 你太美麗，你太美麗
You're beautiful, it's true. 你的美麗，無與倫比
There must be an angel with a smile on her face, 一定有一個面帶微笑的天使
When she thought up that I should be with you. 因為她相信我才是你的白馬王子
But it's time to face the truth, 但是我該面對現實
I will never be with you. 我永遠無法與你相守
2010年1月27日星期三
Translated lyrics-旅行的意义
I thought I might be able to do something like this; but never did. Thanks to some inspiration from someone, I start with this one, one of my favorite songs. I find it hard to find English words for certain Chinese expressions, like 'shuobuchu/shuochu'. I tried to use a variety of words, e.g. tell, explain, specify, elaborate, but i don't think they are the same as that in Chinese. The two languages have different registers. Also, the translated title sounds a little awkward, because i'm not sure if significance stands for 'Yiyi' in Chinese. Well, i have a limited vocabulary, but what can I do about it, just need to keep trying.
hope the internet connection works fine; I just wrote something and then it went blank.
旅行的意义 The Significance of Your Traveling
作曲: 陳綺貞, 編曲: 李雨寰
監製: , 填詞: 陳綺貞
你看過了許多美景 Too much beautiful scenery you’ve seen
你看過了許多美女 Too many pretty girls you’ve encountered
你迷失在地圖上每一道短暫的光陰 In every spot of earth you’ve been lost
你品嚐了夜的巴黎 You’ve savored the beauty of Paris in the night
你踏過下雪的北京 You’ve walked through Beijing covered with snow
你熟記書本裡每一句你最愛的真理 You’ve memorized every single witty sentence
卻說不出你愛我的原因 Yet you cannot explain why you love me
卻說不出你欣賞我哪一種表情 You cannot specify your favorite countenance of me
卻說不出在什麼場合我曾讓你動心 You cannot elaborate when you fall for me
說不出離開的原因 You cannot tell me the reason you keep walking away
你累計了許多飛行 You’ve flied thousands of miles during the years
你用心挑選紀念品 You’ve attentively selected souvenirs
你蒐集了地圖上每一次的風和日麗 You’ve appreciated every single glorious day around the world
你擁抱熱情的島嶼 You’ve embraced islands with passion
你埋葬記憶的土耳其 You’ve left behind the memory of Turkey
你流連電影裡美麗的不真實的場景 You linger upon unrealistically beautiful scenes in movies
卻說不出你愛我的原因 Yet you cannot explain why you love me
卻說不出你欣賞我哪一種表情 you cannot specify your favorite countenance of me
卻說不出在什麼場合我曾讓你分心 you cannot elaborate when I become your distractions
說不出旅行的意義 you cannot tell me the significance of your constant traveling
你勉強說出你愛我的原因 You reluctantly enounce why you love me
卻說不出你欣賞我哪一種表情 Yet you still cannot specify your favorite countenance of me
卻說不出在什麼場合我曾讓你分心 You still cannot explicate when I am your distractions
說不出離開的原因 You still cannot tell me the reason you walk away
勉強說出你為我寄出的每一封信 Then you reluctantly tell me that every letter you’ve sent to me
都是你離開的原因 Accounts for the reasons you left
你離開我 就是旅行的意義 Walking away from me, is the significance of your constant traveling
旅行的意义 The Significance of Your Traveling
作曲: 陳綺貞, 編曲: 李雨寰
監製: , 填詞: 陳綺貞
你看過了許多美景 Too much beautiful scenery you’ve seen
你看過了許多美女 Too many pretty girls you’ve encountered
你迷失在地圖上每一道短暫的光陰 In every spot of earth you’ve been lost
你品嚐了夜的巴黎 You’ve savored the beauty of Paris in the night
你踏過下雪的北京 You’ve walked through Beijing covered with snow
你熟記書本裡每一句你最愛的真理 You’ve memorized every single witty sentence
卻說不出你愛我的原因 Yet you cannot explain why you love me
卻說不出你欣賞我哪一種表情 You cannot specify your favorite countenance of me
卻說不出在什麼場合我曾讓你動心 You cannot elaborate when you fall for me
說不出離開的原因 You cannot tell me the reason you keep walking away
你累計了許多飛行 You’ve flied thousands of miles during the years
你用心挑選紀念品 You’ve attentively selected souvenirs
你蒐集了地圖上每一次的風和日麗 You’ve appreciated every single glorious day around the world
你擁抱熱情的島嶼 You’ve embraced islands with passion
你埋葬記憶的土耳其 You’ve left behind the memory of Turkey
你流連電影裡美麗的不真實的場景 You linger upon unrealistically beautiful scenes in movies
卻說不出你愛我的原因 Yet you cannot explain why you love me
卻說不出你欣賞我哪一種表情 you cannot specify your favorite countenance of me
卻說不出在什麼場合我曾讓你分心 you cannot elaborate when I become your distractions
說不出旅行的意義 you cannot tell me the significance of your constant traveling
你勉強說出你愛我的原因 You reluctantly enounce why you love me
卻說不出你欣賞我哪一種表情 Yet you still cannot specify your favorite countenance of me
卻說不出在什麼場合我曾讓你分心 You still cannot explicate when I am your distractions
說不出離開的原因 You still cannot tell me the reason you walk away
勉強說出你為我寄出的每一封信 Then you reluctantly tell me that every letter you’ve sent to me
都是你離開的原因 Accounts for the reasons you left
你離開我 就是旅行的意義 Walking away from me, is the significance of your constant traveling
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