Start new and different

I like writing weblog articles. It's a way to let out the excessive negative feelings, as well as happy thoughts. In real life there is just not very many people to talk to, especially those who are willing to listen to your endless nonsense.

I have been writing on my Chinese blog for quite a long time, on and off. And there have been some friends who follow my writing, well, it's more like sharing and knowing about friends' life without having to meet in person; and let's face it, in this way, you actually get to know people better.

All of a sudden, I started having a crush on this guy from last year, cannot really recall when it was exactly; the crush has been going on for a while, on and off. And in order to prove that i won't be embarrassed to show him my blog, i showed him. Seriously, it's just silly; however, i think subconsciously i do want him to see it. but yes, i was a little embarrassed. Well, nothing wrong with the embarrassment. He appears to be a very 'mysterious' guy, he doesn't like to share much; even though he does not reject questions, i still don't know what to ask. There is nowhere to begin with. But I don't have many secrets, i like to share and i have to TALK.

It is not that i love him or anything. It's just a crush; and from my own personal 'crushing' experiences, it will probably go away years later. (god, i hope it won't last years, i'm doomed) But i just loving the feeling that you have this kind of passion, not only about a person, but about life itself. It's kind of exciting. I just hope i could have to chance to be related to someone that i really adore, someone annoying and adorable. This is what life should be about, isn't it?

It cannot stay the way it used to be, but the important thing is passion. And meanwhile i began to realize that my English is still not good enough, far from good. This is the major reason that i started this blog, to write in English and read more English writings.

So, off to a good start! And a lot of messes to clear up. Chin up! (intended to say 'good luck', but it seems that luck is really not in my department. (i make up English expressions based on what i hear, it could be very wrong, but i'm just going to take it easy).